Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Benjamin Jennings
Benjamin Jennings

Lena is a tech journalist and digital strategist with over a decade of experience covering emerging technologies and their impact on society.